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I’m reminded that I’m just another human being when I am not remembered (or in my monkey mind, not worth remembering).
From a child point of view, he/she must receive attention to constantly affirm that they are important and ok. Well, you might ask, why would that be the case? Because they are dependent and powerless and MUST have love to survive – actually the love doesn’t matter so much, as it is really the assurance of survival that is the need – and that, indeed, is a big deal.
If we don’t grow up and out of that point of view (small, dependent, powerless, with survival in the hands of another), we still seek to be special, trying to get attention and recognition.
But really most people don’t care that much about you unless you give them what they want: attention and recognition and feeling good about themselves. There is such a chatter in their minds where they are trying to look good to get approval, watching out for signs of approval or disapproval, a constant conversation of self concern – from which they have a few units of attention for you IF you look like a prospect to make them feel good about themselves.
That’s not bad, that’s just what is so.
As an adult, you should learn that seeking attention and recognition and/or approval from another is like playing the slot machine: you get a few hits now and then, but largely you don’t really gain. It is a non-winnable game plus it is one where you don’t have a lot of control over. Yes, you can be the image of what people want and get lots of approval for the façade (Mask? Role? Pretense?) and the real you won’t really be getting the recognition or liked, as it is the image that is liked, not you.
You’re just another person among billions all seeking attention and all self focused and only paying attention to you in a very minor way.
The conclusion: Don’t spend any effort on trying to be a special person to others to get their attention and approval. Just let it be that you’ll either get it or not, and it’ll be nice but it will never be necessary for you to feel good about yourself.
Like one fellow said “I’ll feel good about myself and have good self esteem when others approve of me enough.” Ironically, he is seeking “self” esteem from “other” esteem, which is a contradiction in terms. Secondly, it is a losing game, one of illusion and frustration, usually with some drama and self criticism.
What should I do?
Fo’get ‘bout it…
Just be the loving person, like Ellen F., giving what people truly love.
A child growing up learns to try to be superior or be seen as cool and perfect, all in order to be ok. But an adult knows that is not going to prove a thing. It is all miswired, not true, misconstrued.
There is no self-worth game that is real. It is all imaginary…
You are and will always be the chief source, the creator, of how you treat yourself and of the love that is most meaningful. The rest is a game, an iffy one – but just a game, where there is a score but no need to have a victory – you can just enjoy the game, for there is no real loss, for it is only an imaginary one.
(Try these, instead: Extreme Self Care and Loving Yourself.)
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And, the video that went viral as a commencement speech: You're Not So Special
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